~ śαmα ~

2009-04-21T13:09:00.000-07:00

People do always talk about life being unfair.. but ever realized what if it was all fair?. Life is like this confusing thing and sometimes some of us just wish life could end. No one tells you that life is going to perfect or something. No one tells you that there is not going to be any problems. There is going to be problems and when they only seem to be getting worse do not expect people to tell you that life is going to be fair.And for some its parents who are blamed. But Think about that and then you will realize that they are not making your life miserable but they are just trying to help most of the time. But trust me they want whats best for you! No one ever tells you what to expect in life. No one can predict what you are going to grow up like and absolutely NO ONE tells you life's entire crisis's that are affecting everyone at this very moment. Stuff like depression or suicide are the things that you never expect to consider for yourself. No one ever tells you that in life you are going to lose someone close to you so soon. If you are questioning the meaning of life because you have been unhappy and depressed or if you want to know the meaning of life because you feel useless and worthless. There are people out there in the world who have gone through the same things. And the important thing is to stop allowing your self to believe it is because you know its not. Everyone has there ups and down troubles and the only solution is to over come them..

2009-04-19T14:08:00.000-07:00

We all have things we want to escape from. Some people have their bad family lives ..weather it be with siblings or parents or otherwise. Some have bad jobs that they hate and this gives them something else to do. Some people are just plane bored like me and need an escape for purely that reason.! lol. It’s a way to get far, far away from your problems and everything that’s bothering you, without actually leaving your home..:) And I do believe that writing is one of the great-est escape.! Its like writing your own fictional world..or maybe even modify the one right your living and like be a part of it.. And then you meet your favorite people and you make your story on your own way with all perfections and all ..You can be whoever you want to be! whenever you want to be or wherever you want to be without even taking a step or getting like a plastic surgery. You control every twist and turn in it every plot point and ever word in it. Reading which is an another escape! Are the stories about beloved characters has been around for like centuries!!. You place yourself smack dab in the middle of somebody’s life.. watching twist after twist unfold and you don’t do any of the work ;)! And yes! television is among one of the many great inventions which you don’t have as many details and you can actually feel the emotions that each character is going through. I do believe that mind and imagination are both fascinating things. Creating worlds within worlds is only a thing that human beings are capable of and most are glad to be able to. Weather you prefer controlling everything or just your words and actions alone an escape is sometimes all one needs to stay sane.. :]

2009-04-19T04:16:00.000-07:00

A tear drop away ..Shadows follow, every seed growing slowly takes time for your eyes to open.! Realize what your losing..?? Sorrow fills your heart as hers was filled for on going months. Lies that were truths between you and I. A secret that caused my eyes to open to see you can lose something you never had and miss it even more then what you thought you'd planned. A song that enters my ears, leaves within seconds from my existence but the song your eyes sing to me every time I look in them stays deep within my heart causing this pain I don't wish to go away. Its the only memory I have of something lost that was never mine...

2009-03-30T13:42:00.000-07:00

Friends~ all of us have them.
They are the people who we consider family though we don't have the same blood. The people we turn to when life seems to be at its worst.. The people who we care about and love for reasons that we ourselves can't even explain..:)
In a way.. friends become a permanent piece of us. And i do believe that I'm really lucky to have the best-est friends i ever met! And whom i couldn't ask for any better friends :D!
♥Fathim♥Jumany♥Haifa♥Hathu♥Rashfa♥Sarah♥

Without them i would be missing a massive part of my life :)!
Friends for Eternity

~ ćҢÂήģÍמĢ ~

2009-03-30T07:40:00.001-07:00

I was away from blogging for sometime..I was actually bit (really) lazy these days!!:P So must have seen the new look of my blog lol..! Actually something weird was with the previous template!! It was some virus im guessing, i was having ad's over the page! >. that way! *Its the color notes near that camera and pictures over there* i didn't see it at the first place too:P!
And so talking about new things going on just my grand dads really ill..and about me im the same!.:]..really sad that holidays are going to end! lol now is much better:P!! And yeahh thats it for now!!:P anyway hope the template is nice..! ;) I'm back with the blogging! ♥♥♥

~ЈũśŦ śõMếťÍmĘŠ!~

2009-03-12T07:24:00.000-07:00

Sometimes.. I want to scream! I want to scream at the top of my lungs until I can't scream anymore. Sometimes.. I just want to hit something.! I want to hit anything as hard as I can and keep hitting it until my arms go numb...And Sometimes; I want to run and run as fast and as far as I can until my legs collapse beneath me..Or sometimes, I need to cry.. but I don't.! because I hate to waste that time.. Also sometimes.. I need to close my eyes and listen to my own hear beat! but I can't.. because I'm surrounded by noise.. Then sometimes.. I need to yell at someone; yell as loud as I want at them!! and see the shocked look on their face.. but I don't, because yelling has consequences.!! And yeahh!. Sometimes, I need to tell the truth just like shout it from a very tall building!! and be free of it but I don't.. because I don't think the truth will be enough...sometimes I imagine what my life would be like if I made certain choices!! if I acted a certain way towards certain people.. if I dedicated myself to the things important people consider essential and significant.! Sometimes, I imagine what might happen..or like what would have happened and what I thought would happen!. Sometimes.. I imagine what would happen if I did something I never have before.. And Sometimes I imagine things that never could should or will happen.. but it never hurts to imagine or does it!!? :]
Sometimes.. life gets you down.! Sometimes it beats you and beats you until you just want it to finally kill you.. Sometimes it refuses to give in. All you can do is take it and when Life finally stops hitting you.. you have to get up and stand again!. you have to take another punch you have to keep going.. Because if you can just suffer through it for a little longer.. because if you can just stay alive life will let up on you, even if for only one moment. And in that moment, you will finally see why people take the beatings Life has to give.. because in that moment in betweeen..it's all WORTH it!!. The cold hard truth is Sometimes'..Life sucks! But, sometimes..it doesn't ;);)

~ ҒåĈěβǾǿķ; ũŜΞҒúĽ, Øѓ ĵÚŠŤ Á ΨāŠŧỆ ŌҒ ŤĬMξ? ~

2009-02-26T02:28:00.000-08:00

With the painful era of Myspace long dead and gone new has taken a foothold in our society~ Facebook.!
Each day countless hours are wasted away rummaging through comments or checking the notice board in the hope of receiving a new friend request. As a victim of this myself.. I can say the addicting online facebook! is not only time consuming, but also quite overrated. Originally a convenient means of keeping in touch with relatives, conversing with friends, or keeping updated on social events, Facebook is now polluted with thousands of nonsensical applications and uninteresting cell-phone photos.
Facebook is also known for its ability to act as an online photo album, where friends and family can view vacation photos and leave little comments, but even that use seems to get abused. I can’t count how many people fill up albums with pictures unrelated. Not only do people feel the need to fill albums with cell-phone pictures of their face, but also to take as many pictures as they can of daily life.
The idea of applications first came to Facebook in the form of Graffiti, a harmless sketchpad, but it soon turned into a massive number of pointless and irritating quizzes.! Not only do these quizzes take up time, but also space.
While all this is true, people may still wonder whether there is an alternative to Facebook, a way to keep in touch with their friends and to keep updated on events. Well there most definitely is!

~ νẼĽąń†łňềś đДỶ ~

2009-02-25T14:43:00.000-08:00

I'm tired of crying
I told myself I was done with you.!
Well, go figure. There is a difference between getting over and getting through somebody.
Love is a battle and I did fight every day for you.
To love is to sacrifice, eh?
It's love.

You're probably tired of hearing the mushy crap but every day the statement becomes more true.!
I could babble about personal nonsense, but would you even remember?..
Don't bother.
Yeah! it would have been a year.
But here it is Valentines Day I'm telling myself again
I'm Done With You!

ҢαÞÞŶ ฿'ĎãҰ, mŐm!

2009-02-10T14:07:00.000-08:00

No words could ever express
just how special you are to me.
You've always been there to cheer me on
and offering support in my times of need.
You've been a wonderful mother
and deserve the very best.

I wish you more than a wonderful Birthday,
I wish you the happiest.

Happy Birthday, Mom!
I LOVE YOU!! <3

~ ĹøvЭ ĐÌĽềmmĀ ~

2009-01-28T06:01:00.000-08:00

-To fall in love with someone you dont love, can either be an admiration or an addiction!
-To love someone who doesn't love you back, can either be martyrdom or foolishness!
-To love someone because that someone loves you back, can either be true love or blindness!
-To be loved by someone and not love that someone back, can either be cruelty or its just not meant to be!
-To be loved for who you are and love that someone because of that, can either be infatuation or the real thing!

~ שּׂĦẾח a ĎŘểĀM §ҢāŤťẺŗ ~

2009-01-22T00:16:00.000-08:00

We all cherish some kind of hope to accomplish our dreams and prove that we are capable of becoming successful and making ourselves known to the whole world. Sometimes.. we feel so convinced that we are on the threshold of success and that only one easily vincible obstacle separates us from it. But are we also aware that life changes when we least expect it.?? We pin all our hopes to one thing that we hope of but its not everyone lucky enough to get it..! And if we think about achievements its not parents or others who want it.. its just You! And its not easy to tell how we feel when we loose what we all ways wanted. Infact it hurts more than you can express it!

~ mĭšśÍŊĠ ệmÕťїØИš ~

2009-01-16T07:58:00.000-08:00

They say we have 31 emotions but I can only identify with two… I know them as pain and happiness and without them I don’t know what I would do..They have subconsciously become my crutch more or less getting me through each day. When I wake along side PAIN I tend to not give a damn what others have to say.
Now on the days that arise to the HAPPINESS that fills my heart and soul!. I am engulfed with a feeling that if I tried to explain I wouldn’t know where to start...
Has my environment made me numb to everything that consists of my other 29 emotions? Lol..Being feared is not something I strive for.. but I see it as a somewhat necessity. In a strange way I fear myself.., due to the fact that I know I am capable of achieving that ever elusive victory. So as I wait for the day when I can open my eyes and feel anything but PAIN and HAPPINESS.. my soul is continuing to be cut with little inches.I keep on attempting to achieve greatness while always keeping my heart from becoming filled with imaginary visions.

~ ťÙѓήŀņĞ āŘÖύŅđ! ~

2009-01-13T08:16:00.000-08:00

After a days I'm back here! ;]!! Its been sometime that this post was left as a draft..! I'm not sure what i was planning to write even! Anyway 2009 is so great so far! And that's it i guess..! I have not really planned any thing like a resolution or something but i guess I'm thinking to do more in life and all..! :D And by the way I'm trying to work with dad in his office ..! But really not decided!! Anyways looking through i haven't really done anything so far..Well a cousin of mine stayed for like two weeks with me here which felt good to have someone at home to hangout! ;)
But since she left again its just me! And well things are pretty good around with family and friends too. And then i guess that's whats around these days.. x]

~ ňỀŵ ỲëĂŗ! ~

2009-01-04T07:39:00.000-08:00

Changing from 2008 to 2009, wishing all bloggers a Happy New Year 2009!! Hope 2009 gives more than 2008, with double the happiness and love! Anyway New Year Night was awesome as at home it was celebrated as a family party! And it was really good! ;)
Well as new year begins I want a lot to be changed this year, theres a lot to change in me as well as other stuff! And hoping to make things in home,family and friends better. Forget some stuff that i need to and move on! Anyway studies are even pretty important this year and btw my results come this month which im scared to see!! LOL!
Anyways have happy and prosperous 2009! ;)

~ 2008 ~

2008-12-26T06:27:00.000-08:00

Well to be honest 2008 was a year of both happiness and bitterness. An year of opportunities, experiences and unforgettable moments. A lot changed and happened in this year. Experienced dreams being fulfilled and others vanish away. And also taught a lot of things I wasn't aware of!. As this year ends remembering the memorable moments that happened which couldn't have been any better. Also the beautiful moments with my family and friends which means a lot more than anything & could not be forgotten. And remembering every single moment of happiness and excitement and forgetting all the vengeful frustrations faced this year. Well and for the time of failures, nothing beats a try again ;)!

~ ŵôŋďЗŗĬИģ ~

2008-12-24T05:54:00.000-08:00

Its been a long time again, since my last post! Actually blogging was sort of a boring thing last few days and i just didn't feel like doing so.. Anyway well things around are bit confusing these days.. I'm just not sure of what to do in life.. Sometimes i really think of working somewhere and then again i feel i don't want to. Lol just still can't figure out what to do next..

~ ҺóĿÍďàŸ ~

2008-12-09T23:43:00.000-08:00

Its been the greatest time in this whole holiday so far..! I just came last night from an island.. Enjoyed it very much!! :D And I'm actually happy!. The island was an invitation for my dad and we stayed at this boat yard place and the whole time there was pretty awesome! When i first went i thought it was going to be the most boring part of my life but it was so great!! hehhe :D:D:D and was one of the best EID ever in my life!!

PS. to all who read this blog wish u enjoy this happy occasion of eid ! Eid Mubarak!
And fathimm.!! Happy Bday =]

~ ฿ðгÐמĒŠşš!! ~

2008-11-26T01:16:00.000-08:00

This is been like the most weirdest days of my life.! I'm stuck home and BORED..So bored i don't know what to do..lol And i forget to update my blog daily which i thought of before.. Anyway i wake these days something like 1 in the afternoon as i sleep very late. I don't know why but i just cant sleep :| ! Last night i read a this story..One of my favorite which is called, forever by Judy Bloom.. Its a teenage classic and i like the book a lot.! So today is my cousins birthday so i have to go to his party at the evening and tonight i think my friends are coming over.. Well i guess holidays wont be that long like i thought of it..Already is going to be December! Days are going pretty fast thought its really boring!!:P lol

~ ĦÂÞρŶ ฿łŗ†ŋđåỵ ~

2008-11-25T02:08:00.000-08:00

This is for Haifa and Jumany *BFF* HAPPY BIRTHDAY !! Hope you guys enjoy your sweet 16!! :D
P.s Dont forget ur treat!

~ āăāяĜĤ... ~

2008-11-19T01:53:00.000-08:00

Its been sometime since my last post.! Well..For days I'm not in the usual mood. Its BORING in here.! :@ All my day I have been watching episodes of stuff i missed through my exam time! Well i got nothing better to do.! Just locked in my room 24/7.. I don't know what the hell I'm going to do in this long holidays !! :@:@:@:@:@ Even fb is boring now..!! :/ ..tsk tsk! And all i can do is wake the whole night and sleep the whole day!! Which my moms gets madd at me!! lol

~ §ĆҺŌÕĺ mΞmÓŗłỆŚ ~

2008-11-14T06:37:00.000-08:00

Well.. Today was a special day as it was my graduation..! & I guess it was great.! Its still unbelievable that schools over..! LOL I don't feel like its over!! Anyway it was bad that I'm no more a part of the school.! And today i really miss 2007! When i was in 9..! It was my best and the most enjoyable year! lol!! Specially when when Jumany, Fathim, Hathu, Thaatha and Myself made a conversation book and use to chat in class..!:P And in 2007 also I was taken to the office:@:@!! & also had to fill a discipline form! thank god after filling it even my overoll conduct was excellent :D ! lol!! Anyway what i know it I'm going to miss the school a LOT! :(:(

~ 13/11/2008 ~

2008-11-13T06:12:00.000-08:00

..Well i have been waiting to today since days!! And Hoooooray! finally it came..Lol! Well today was one of my greatest day in my whole school life! and sadly i realized how much i'm going to miss all about my school.! &..! Today was a total blast and came home in colors! LOL! Thou i enjoyed it a lot!! These three years in my life has given me a lot..I met one of the greatest friends in my whole life which i couldn't ask for any better!... it was like yesterday..anyway days seem to be going too fast..! And just want to say i enjoyed today like hell ! its a memorable day! x]

~ †Ћĺņģŝ ŵë ĈÁח ĻÊÄяמ ҒŔõm à ÐŏĠ ~

2008-11-11T08:26:00.000-08:00

I found this article on internet..So just thought of sharing with you all x]!

1.Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joy ride.
2.Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure ecstasy.
3.When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.
4.When it’s in your best interest, always practice obedience.
5.Let others know when they’ve invaded your territory.
6.Take naps and always stretch before rising.
7.Run, romp, and play daily.
8.Eat with gusto and enthusiasm.
9.Be loyal.
10.Never pretend to be something you’re not.
11.If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.
12.When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by and nuzzle them gently.
13.Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
14.Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
15.Avoid biting when a simple growl will do.
16.On hot days, drink lots of water and lie under a shady tree.
17.When you are happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
18.No matter how often you are criticized, don’t buy into the guilt thing and pout.
19.Run right back and make friends.

~ mÍśśłŇĠ Íţ ŴҢẾמ їťŠ ģÕמĖ ~

2008-11-11T01:56:00.000-08:00

They say you don't know what you miss until its gone..Why is it we don't realize how much we miss it until its all gone.? School is ending before me and its like 4 days more ..I only started missing the fun and all the moments that i spent in school when its almost over..! & when i found the one person whom i longed for i guess it didn't work out either but God has given me so much.. I realize how blessed I am. I know that I take many things forgranted.. I need to open my eyes to those things so that I can truly appreciate how much god have done for me.. For the experiences that have made me who I am today..

~ ĭ Ҝếęρ Óח đѓỄÁmÌńĠ ~

2008-11-11T01:13:00.000-08:00

When you wake up everyday, what is it that you're waking up for? Your job, money, school or for the person you love? Do we work to make money or make money to live? Dreams are to be kept alive and understand to achieve anything that requires faith and always believe in yourself..vision..hard work..determination & dedication. Its only possible to those who believe in their selves. I had my dreams some shattered.. some came true and some lost.. But i guess i got more to dream more to achieve and i guess there is some thing bigger planned then i thought!

~ ŢãĢĞẼđ ~

2008-10-17T10:41:00.000-07:00

urm..im tagged!! by ziggy :P

1. wat's ur latest addiction? imgaing stuff..lol
2. wat r u listnin to? music
3. how late did u stay up last nyt n y? umm.. sumthin like 4!
4. who were u wit last friday nyt? home with family i gues x]
5. do u think u will b in a relationship 3 mnths frm nw? urm..may be..may be not!
6. wen is da next tym u'll see ur clz frnds? tmrow.. i c them like evryday ;)
7. wat were u duin this mrnin at 7am? sleeeeeping
8. wat radio station do u listn to da most? urmm dnt realy listen
9. wat was da reason u last cried? i cant remember..
10. hav u evr talk'd to sumone wen they were high? yea..lol
11. wat's da fifth text in ur inbox say? "maths tution at 3" lol
12. Whr was da last cofy shop u go to? umm dunt rememberr
13. wat's ur outfit ryt nw? t-shirt nd shortz..
16. wat were u duin at 11pm last nyt? umm cant remember nw..
17. who was da last person u talked to last nyt b4 bed? my self
18. will u b drivin in a year? lol varah :P
19. is thr nethn tht u r craving ryt nw? yeahh
20. wen did ur last hug take place? uhhm..ermm..umm..
22. hav u evr started a sentence wit "No offense, but..."? umm.. i dnt remember startin
23. Do u drink tea? not usualy
24. hav u evr byn arrested? nop
25. hav u rode in sum1 els's car 2day? yeah
26. hav u made a mistake this past week? yeh :/
27. who was da last person u texted? a frnd..:)
28. r u happy wit ur life ryt nw? no..i lot need to change
29. in da past 72 hrs hav u byn undr da influence of slyp? yeah
30. wat's da connection between u n da last person u texted? friends XD

*duh*.. whrs question 14,15 & 21.. ?? newayz.. my turn!! next in passed to sykez..

~ mŷ mÍŇđ ĬŞ Ь ŀ ą ή ҝ ! ~

2008-09-26T03:45:00.000-07:00

I never realised how beautiful the blank was
The amount of times I’ve found myself staring into its glory
It’s phenomenal.
Sometimes I don’t realise…
It’s blurred out by my tears,
It’s out of focus, never seen perfectly,
Though, it is perfect
It’s everything
It’s nothing
The only place I can turn to
When I try to avoid those eyes
I try to avoid…
The blank is there for me.
Always..